Monday, October 1, 2001

Whoa! I haven't blogged in forever! Let's see, in the time I've been gone...I got a boyfriend, and it ended two days later. *shrug* That's pretty much it. I don't know if I'm cut out for this blog stuff...I never have much to say. I hate my Japanese class. I loved it last year, but now it's filled with all these self-righteous morons. No, I won't go into details. But...yeah, it's not shiny. Ugh...I really have nothing to say. Toodleoo.

Thursday, September 13, 2001

It's been awhile. I've been wrapped up with school and that great national crisis. >_< I'm going to refrain from voicing my opinion on what happened to our nation, because I think we all have similar feelings. Only...it doesn't feel real. I've seen the Twin Towers. Now I've seen them blow up. It looked like a movie. Special effects have desensitized us. Like, I could see the same thing in some big budget Hollywood movie. Thirty years ago, footage like this would have shocked people. What does it do now? "Hey, that looks like a movie I saw."

I guess I'm done.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

Ok, well school wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. I still saw a bunch of people I didn't want to >_< but it wasn't as terrible as it could have been. My programming teacher is really funny, and stuff. Kelsey told me that Marc wants me to do stage crew again, which makes me super happy. ^_^ I was in a totally bad mood the whole day until I went to Japanese. It's impossible not to be at least midly cheerful there. My teacher is the happiest, most energetic person I have ever met, and none of it is fake. I'm glad I have her for a second year.

Tuesday, September 4, 2001

Ugh...I have to go to school today. I'm not ready. I don't want to see all those people again. I spent most of my vacation in seclusion from them...I don't want to see them...I really don't...ugh. I'll kill the first person who calls soda "pop". *shudder* IT'S SODA, DAMMIT! I'm aware that the full name is soda pop...but calling it pop is like calling someone by their last name...you generally don't. And pop is also an obnoxious form of music, a noise that bubble wrap makes, and what some people call their daddies. It is anything *but* what you call SODA. GOD DAMMIT. Ok...calming down. >_<

Sunday, September 2, 2001

Ahhh!!! Weird dream! Almost no one reads my blog, but here goes! I don't want to type it again, so here's a chat transcript.

C4L1F0RN14N (8:58:40 PM): well...i was at school, and it was a combo of emerson and shorecrest
C4L1F0RN14N (8:58:54 PM): and i was taking this witchcraft course
LightFromShadow (8:59:03 PM): ok
C4L1F0RN14N (8:59:20 PM): in the shorecrest theatre, there's the booth where i ran the spotlight, and in my dream, the booth was restricted only to witches
C4L1F0RN14N (8:59:41 PM): and floey was also taking the class, and we decided since we were witches in training, we could go up there
C4L1F0RN14N (8:59:54 PM): there was all this incredible food, and we pigged out
C4L1F0RN14N (9:00:04 PM): and kelsey was there
C4L1F0RN14N (9:00:34 PM): and i said "do you think we'll get caught?" and she said "not unless marc finds us, and he won't be here for awhile" marc's the guy in charge of the theatre.
C4L1F0RN14N (9:00:44 PM): so we came out of the booth, and he was comming up
C4L1F0RN14N (9:00:58 PM): we had to talk to this fat chick, and she said we all had to pay for the food we ate
C4L1F0RN14N (9:01:05 PM): i owed 60 cents
LightFromShadow (9:01:10 PM): lol
C4L1F0RN14N (9:01:26 PM): and i offered to pay it right then and there, but she said i had to make an account and then pay for it that way
C4L1F0RN14N (9:01:59 PM): so...can't remember what
happened...and then i was in a locker room with a bunch of other witches-in-training, and it was the 15 minute break
C4L1F0RN14N (9:02:17 PM): there was some unspoken rule that you needed to shower before witch class
C4L1F0RN14N (9:02:37 PM): so we all showered together...and we felt that because we were bonded by being witches, we were fine being naked in front of each other
C4L1F0RN14N (9:02:50 PM): erin meierhenry was there
C4L1F0RN14N (9:02:51 PM): O_o
LightFromShadow (9:03:00 PM): i'm liking this dream
C4L1F0RN14N (9:03:12 PM): so we all got out of the shower, and i asked "what time does class start?"
LightFromShadow (9:03:12 PM): were you all hot?
C4L1F0RN14N (9:03:14 PM): no
LightFromShadow (9:03:18 PM): i wanna have that dream
LightFromShadow (9:03:24 PM): why can't i have that dream?
C4L1F0RN14N (9:03:26 PM): someone said the time, and we all realized we were late
LightFromShadow (9:03:26 PM): dammit . . .
C4L1F0RN14N (9:03:40 PM): we were freaking out, because witch class was something you *didn't* want to be late for
C4L1F0RN14N (9:04:13 PM): we ran to class, and the rest of the class was walking out of the outer-core portables at emerson into "the factory" at shorecrest
C4L1F0RN14N (9:04:25 PM): as punishment for being late, we had to stand in a line
C4L1F0RN14N (9:04:49 PM): and each of us would have a chain fastened around our wrists, which we had to keep twirling
LightFromShadow (9:04:51 PM): were you still naked?
C4L1F0RN14N (9:04:54 PM): NO
LightFromShadow (9:04:56 PM): oh
LightFromShadow (9:05:04 PM): darn
C4L1F0RN14N (9:05:32 PM): the teacher held these seeds in her mouth, and deposited a small amount into each of our hands, and we had to sprinkle the seeds, twirl the chain, and repeat these words over and over again
C4L1F0RN14N (9:05:40 PM): i could remember the words when i woke up...but i can't now
C4L1F0RN14N (9:05:54 PM): they were three words...the last was emmanuel
C4L1F0RN14N (9:06:04 PM): the first two were in some weird language
C4L1F0RN14N (9:06:23 PM): there were three witch classes, just like there were three classes in the outer core at emerson
LightFromShadow (9:06:50 PM): i have no idea what the outer core is.
C4L1F0RN14N (9:07:04 PM): the dream skipped, and my witch class was in our emerson portable...come to think of it...i think a lot of the class was my 7th grade core class...
C4L1F0RN14N (9:07:23 PM): the core classes were english, history, and science, and we had the same people in all of them. the outer core was the core i was in.
C4L1F0RN14N (9:07:32 PM): anyways...
C4L1F0RN14N (9:09:11 PM): we were in the witch class that had the teacher who was similar to mrs depaula from emerson...she was my english teacher, we all hated her. i actually drew this connection in my dream..."my god, she's just like my 7th grade english teacher!"
LightFromShadow (9:09:52 PM): lol
C4L1F0RN14N (9:09:56 PM): the teacher said "you guys are lucky. today we have mrs _____ observing our class." this was the equivilant to my 7th grade science teacher, and i made this connection in the dream as well
C4L1F0RN14N (9:10:07 PM): then something happened, not sure what
C4L1F0RN14N (9:10:16 PM): and we left the classroom
C4L1F0RN14N (9:10:50 PM): there was this guy standing outside the classroom, who was our age, but was really high up in the witch rankings...i guess he'd be a warlock or whatever
C4L1F0RN14N (9:11:08 PM): oh, btw, the classes were all girls
C4L1F0RN14N (9:11:23 PM): we all thought this guy was really weird, because all he would do is stand outside the room
C4L1F0RN14N (9:11:47 PM): but i started talking to him, and we started *really* liking each other
C4L1F0RN14N (9:12:31 PM): and in my subconciousness, for some reason i drew a connection between him and this guy from the sailormoon rpg snes game that i play, but i can't see the connection now
C4L1F0RN14N (9:12:57 PM): he and i would ditch the class sometimes and we'd sneak up to the booth and eat
C4L1F0RN14N (9:13:15 PM): and then i'd sneak back into the class
C4L1F0RN14N (9:13:27 PM): i thought i was undetected for awhile, but i was wrong
C4L1F0RN14N (9:13:55 PM): the witch teachers knew what he and i were doing, and after class one day, my teacher came up to me and said "you must stay away from _______ or there will be consequences."
C4L1F0RN14N (9:14:16 PM): this angered me, because there were other girls in the class who were dating guy witches, and nothing happened to them
LightFromShadow (9:14:37 PM): ok
C4L1F0RN14N (9:14:40 PM): the guy and i didn't want to break up, so i told him that i would just go to the counselor and drop the class
C4L1F0RN14N (9:14:55 PM): because i felt that they couldn't do anything to me if they weren't my teachers anymore
C4L1F0RN14N (9:15:34 PM): but he told me that wouldn't work. they would follow me forever, and they would do what they were going to do to me. i had this intense feeling that i'd never escape what i'd gotten myself into, and i felt so helpless
C4L1F0RN14N (9:15:39 PM): and that's about when i woke up
C4L1F0RN14N (9:18:07 PM): there was also some weird thing about all these guys with the same name driving in a car together and crashing, and my teacher saying "all guys named _____ must be stupid!" but i can't remember whent that happened
LightFromShadow (9:19:12 PM): that's odd
C4L1F0RN14N (9:19:27 PM): the only real connection i can make is that when i was in 7th grade, we reffered to our core teachers as "the witch (science teacher) the bitch (english teacher) and the leprachuan (history teacher)

Uhhh, I doubt anyone actually read that whole thing, but yeah. Opinions would be cool.

Wednesday, August 29, 2001

Alright. Well, I'm feeling better about the loss of my man; I'm just hoping he'll still want to be friends. He was my best friend, and losing him in that respect would be even worse than losing him in the relationship-sense. Yeah. I don't know how he feels, because he still doesn't have a new comp. Yesterday, he chatted with me at a friend's house.

Yes, I have a lovely new pic adorning my blog. If Frank-N-Furter bothers you, rot in hell. =P~~ Right now, he's the only thing keeping me from keeling over and crying. So, I think he'll be gracing our presence here for awhile. Deal with it.

Name: Jessica
Aliases: Gnome, Pigeon, Indigo, Little One, Californian
Birthday: 5/12/85
Location: Seattle
Email: End of the World
ICQ: Vile Pigeon
AIM: C4L1F0RN41N
Site: Lost Little Girl

Mood: sad
Music: the news...?
Wearing: Curious George shirt and jeans
Chatting with: Nobody
Eating: Nothin
Drinking: Nothin
Desktop: some crazy canyons on the school comp

Music: Alice Cooper, The Doors
J-Rock: Penicillin
Anime: Utena
Bishounen: Nuriko
Seiyuu: Midorikawa Hikaru
Movie: Rocky Horror, Magnolia
TV Show: 1960s Batman, The Three Stooges
Cartoon: Daria
Actor: Tim Curry
Actress: Winona Ryder
Book: 1984 by George Orwell
Color: orange, black
Food: Chinese

Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: High
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Moderate

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